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Short Stories {3} ~ Paradox Diffusion

Years after searching for God in psychedelics, Rumi had not wavered in her quest for knowledge. Without the benefit of a prescribed social role, she did what she wanted, when she wanted, which was to learn without regard for convention. Today, paradoxes were circulating around her mind, determined, she would not sleep without finding her answer.

At other times and in other places, Rumi would have been burned at the stake, hailed as a prophet, or stoned. The present time simply ignored her. Normal people treated Rumi as a public garbage can, light post, or stalled car, as an obstacle that could be moved but numbed by her surroundings.

“Take your pills NOW,” shouted the nurse down the corridor, from Texas’s renound mental hospital for the “insane.” Rumi rolled her eyes as Nurse Truchin’s sharp voice echoed and bounced off blood stained walls, she was sitting in room 23, her white washed room “gifted” to her by her parents, they could not cope with her cosmic mind anymore. Rumi had been in Senora Texas Mental Hospital for two weeks and she felt on edge, this was her first time in an asylum. Rumi paced up and down her abode, she had to take those dreaded sleeping pills or else they would force it down her throat somehow. Reluctantly she calmly walked down the hallway and was handed her pill through the dorms pill shutter.

Rumi swallowed the pill. “Good, now go back to your room, checks are at 11pm, make sure you are in your bed or you know what will happen,” said Nurse Truchin coldly. Rumi said nothing, she would achieve nothing by responding and quietly returned to her room blocking out the screams from the room beside her’s.

Shutting her door, relieved, she lay on her bed staring at the white washed walls that had become her friend. What were paradoxes? How could two opposing propositions exist at the same time? The sleeping pills were making her more and more drowsy. Lonely and with a heavy heart she pulled the duvet above her head. “A paradox is a statement or problem that either appears to produce two entirely contradictory (yet possible) outcomes, or provides proof for something that goes against what we intuitively expect,” Rumi reiterated inside of her mind.

Hallucinating as she usually did on these pills, she saw imagery quite like her visions on magic mushrooms a few months ago. Warping geometric patterns danced in a trance with eachother as her eyes flickered going in and out of consciousness.

I will sleep on this Rumi decided in her mind drifting off into the astral planes.

Upon awakening her answer had arrived, getting out her notebook she wrote “Paradoxes lead you to God.”

On her day of release, after all this time pretending to act normal to get out of this hell hole of an asylum, Rumi saw Mrs. Truchin as “insane” and Mrs. Truchin saw Rumi as insane. Rumi quietly knew that duality breaks down into formless consciousness; she was sane in an insane world.

“I know one thing,” Rumi said to Mrs. Truchin as she left the asylum doors. “And that is that I know nothing.” Rumi remembered studying ancient Greek philosopher’s such as Socrates years ago. Mrs. Truchin took one bewildered look at Rumi and walked away. Rumi smiled to herself and smelt freedom once again, her taxi was awaiting to pass through the doors into the insane world.

Time is a construct of consciousness and in higher dimensions has no meaning. but, in the lower dimensions it is used to measure changes and in the multitudes of parallel timelines all simultaneously existing. Paradoxes melt into the all, Source, Brahman, Allah, whatever name you stamp onto formless ether.

~DiosRaw 01/04/21

~Understanding Karma~

“The universe is vastly more intelligent than you. Human intelligence, and your personal intelligence, is a tiny filament of universal intelligence. The sooner you can grasp this, the smoother your life will flow. Here’s why:

Your life is not random. The universe conspires to give you exactly what you need to grow. Not what you want, but what you need.

Think of yourself like a rough jagged stone. It can roll, but not very well. There’s a lot of bumps and friction compared to say, a glass marble. The glass marble represents the ideal frictionless state. A state of full surrender. A state of full consciousness. A state of highest human maturity and development. A state where human intelligence becomes one with universal intelligence.

That is NOT your current state. Your current state is that of a jagged rock. So when you try to roll, it’s painful. The pain points you experience every day of your ordinary life are PRECISELY those jagged edges which the universe wants you to smooth out. That’s why your suffering keeps recurring and doesn’t seem to end. Because you’re failing to learn the lessons! The universe wants to turn you into a perfect marble. But you create very inventive ways to avoid the polishing process. You view it as hostile to your self, when really it is loving. You create ways to weasel out of it. Because its painful to get polished. If given the option between getting polished vs having an easy day, you’ll probably pick the easy day.

The problem is… life is one loooong downhill slope. It’s all about rolling. So when you avoid getting polished, you’re just setting yourself up for a rocky ride. You can’t be alive and not get rolled. The only question is, will you roll easy, or will you roll hard? Will you learn your lessons? Life is long and hard when you’re jagged. The universe’s purpose is to polish you. The reason you’re alive is to get polished. This is the point of your life. If you don’t understand this, you’ll keep running away and keep experiencing a rocky journey. But if you understand this, you’ll let yourself get polished and you’ll have a silky smooth ride towards the end.

Your suffering is not random. In your suffering is great intelligence. Your suffering is literally your unenlightenment — is your specific ignorance. The intelligence of the universe is presenting you with life-scenarios which are designed to smooth you out in the EXACT ways you personally need smoothing. When you get into a fight with your Mom, when you get into a financial difficultly, when you fail at school, when you get into a car accident, when your spouse cheats on you, when you get a health problem, when you feel like quitting your meditation practice, when you distract yourself from self-inquiry — these are all messages of growth, calls to adventure, calls to your highest self. Guess what? The universe is not going to send you an email or text message saying, “Wake up!” It’s much more elegant than that. It embeds the message straight into your life. How can you tell you have a message? Your suffering is the universe’s “you’ve got mail”.

Don’t go looking elsewhere for growth. It’s all the stuff you’re avoiding. Money is not growth. A new relationship is not growth. A thriving business is not growth. Employee of the month is not growth. Growth is how you are BEing.

This, in essence, is karma. Karma is not some silly law of universal justice. It’s the universe trying to optimize itself, the same way it smooths out rocks in the sea, turning them into elegant pebbles. When the rock doesn’t understand the bigger picture, it’s in for a grind. If the rock resists the process, it’s in for a grind.”

Source ~ https://www.actualized.org/insights?p=53

~Ahankara~

Ahankara is a Sanskrit word that describes the ego, the image a person has of him/herself or the conscious mind as he/she perceives it.

The term comes from the root, aham, which translates as “I am”; and kara, which means “doing” or “making.” A related term, asmita, is sometimes used as a synonym for ahankara, but whereas the latter describes the ego, the former describes egoism or attachment to what the ego desires.

Ahankara can also be thought of as the yogi’s sense of who he or she is. It can be either positive or negative and include self-worth, desires, thoughts and personality.

~Desavakasika~

Desavakasika is a Sanskrit disciplinary vow. Developed by the Jain monks, desavakasika, is the vow a person makes for how they will approach and live their life in their immediate environment. While the monks were known to sacrifice relationships and many comforts of life, they created a tiered set of vows that included the guna vratas, or “merit vows,” and the siksa vratas, or “disciplinary vows,” to help all yogis develop an intentional life.

~Mehndi~

Mehndi, also spelled mehendi, is the ancient art of decorating the skin using henna paste. It is also the name of the paste. The elaborate decorations are most typically done on the hands and feet. Although the use of henna as a dye appears to have originated in Egypt, its use in skin decoration may have developed in India.

Today, mehndi as an art form is practiced around the world, particularly in India, the Middle East, Africa and Asia. In India, decorating the feet and hands of the bride is a popular and often elaborate pre-wedding ceremony, but mehndi is also a part of many Hindu festivals and ceremonies. Yogis and yoginis also decorate their skin with mehndis that have symbolic significance.

~Divya~

Divya is the Sanksrit term for “divine,” “fate” or “fortune.” Divya is also a popular first name for girls, especially in India and among those who practice Hinduism.

Within yoga philosophy, divya often refers to divine insight, or divya-drishti. Divya-drishti, once attained, helps yogis communicate and connect with the Divine and can permit a yogi to see into the future as well as the past.

~Sakshi~

Sakshi is a Sanskrit term with several meanings, including “witness,” “Supreme Being” and “the ego.” The word is derived from the roots, sa, meaning “with,” and aksha, meaning “senses,” “eyes” or “spiritual wisdom.” This wisdom is the insight a yogi gains through awakening his/her inner witness, or sakshi.

In Hindu philosophy, sakshi refers to the concept of pure awareness in which the yogi witnesses the world, but does not get involved or become affected by worldly things.