Tag Archives: painful

Poetry {73} ~ A STORY OF ABSTRACT TEARS

Tears are words the heart translates into abstract emancipations for what it cannot express

Inside gaze

Watery world

Doors to the soul closed

Sacred tears expose

Every shedding has a story

Weaving their own silvery thread

Tales in each vessel

Drawn from the infinite well

Streams become rivers, rivers through valleys and hills

Flooding and flowing back to it’s source

Tis a watery cosmic place

Ebbs and flows of drowning and emergence

Relief and breathlessness melding to clutch onto sanity

The pull of insanity

Suppression of release

Dunking into the waters of bleak ground.

~DiosRaw, 24/05/21

The Human Family Community Open Threads {46} ~ How Has Music Changed Your Life?

Welcome to “The Human Family Community Open Threads,” a project open for anyone who would like to express their feelings, make friends or talk about anything; if you feel suicidal, depressed, anxious or lonely during these times this project is here for you. Feel free to leave a comment below and connect, let’s start a conversation. No judgement, we don’t know until we walk in someone else’s shoes..

~DiosRaw, 03/05/21

Journal {6} ~ 22/04/21 ~ A Message To My Doctors

“Hi, my heart is feeling very very weak, I have a lot of heart pain and chest pain with searing, stabbing pains coming from my heart. My lungs hurt and I have a lump in my throat that hasn’t gone down (I was given a nasal spray and it didn’t work when tried) which makes me have problems swallowing and breathing. My anxiety is severely bad and I feel very very weak, tired and the fibromyalgia pain. I have collapsed a few times and lost consciousness.

I had test results that came back indicating I have deficiencies in Vitamin B12, Iron and Vitamin D. I would like to have the Vitamin-B12 injections, apologies for any inconveniences when I stopped after the first injection a month or so ago. The Iron and Vitamin-D supplements I cannot take due to the ingredients which give me severe allergies.. What can I do to restore my Iron and Vitamin-D levels? I can’t eat any foods except 8 due to my gut lining being damaged by the pharmaceuticals given to me at 19, I am allergic to pretty much everything; weak weak immune system. Please help me, my health is very bad and I am scared.”

~Love is the answer. Amber, DiosRaw 23/04/21

Poetry {30} ~ LONELY SUFFOCATION

How long can a lonely soul live in isolation?

Before the soul cracks in desolation

Chained in a cycle of decimation

Writing everyday is the dedication

Offering some conceptualised form of consolation

Spinning mind deluded in rotation

Endless days of holding up the tumbling portration

Hooked on a dead end of pharmaceutical “medication”

Anxiety riddled falling down, palpitations

Eyes pinpointed on painful pulsations

Cycles of tormenting rumination

Quicksand, ever drowning stagnation

Soul parts, fragmentation

Suicidal oscillations

Out in the world, observation

Smile, preservation

Maintaining the biting presentation

Sucking into the abyss, suffocation

Dissociation

Knife jabbing pains, overwhelming intoxication

Fantasising of the chance for rehabilitation

Begging to be put down in sedation

Lost in the formless meditation

In and out consciousness, never cessation

Riding through the cosmos, pineal gland transportation

Fighting the war of ideation

Passing by the flowers, dreaming of their image of reincarnation

One day emancipation.

~DiosRaw, 12/10/21

The Human Family Community Open Threads {10} ~ Where Do We Come From?

Welcome to “The Human Family Community Open Threads,” a project open for anyone who would like to express their feelings, make friends or talk about anything; if you feel suicidal, depressed, anxious or lonely during these times this project is here for you. Feel free to leave a comment below and connect, let’s start a conversation. No judgement, we don’t know until we walk in someone else’s shoes..

~DiosRae 27/03/21

The Human Family Community Open Threads: {9} ~ Who Are We?

Welcome to “The Human Family Community Open Threads,” a project open for anyone who would like to express their feelings, make friends or talk about anything; if you feel suicidal, depressed, anxious or lonely during these times this project is here for you. Feel free to leave a comment below and connect, let’s start a conversation. No judgement, we don’t know until we walk in someone else’s shoes..

~DiosRsw 26/03/21